getting lost while attempting to refuel... grrr!

I’m pondering ‘resting’ again today. After a week of engagements on several different levels even my bones are weary. I find myself asking the LORD what resting looks like. How can resting be such a hard concept? I wonder what God did on the day that He “rested”. I’m sure He still kept the universe running. Does that take effort? Or once He set it in motion does it just run by itself? My next question is, there was man by then, did He listen to prayers on that day? Did Adam pray? Or did he just save his questions for when God came down for His evening walk. Did God walk on the day He rested? Sometimes my mind is full of 5 year old questions. But it seems import if we are to imitate God in His resting to know what His resting was like.

So God what is resting? (listening) It feels like His answer to me today is about today only. Resting today, I’m not sure how to do that.

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\Well, it’s already evening and resting didn’t happen today. Even my business meeting was cut short. The attack on my attempt to take time to rest feels intentional on the side of the evil one. One crisis turned into another… and then there were the things I actually did plan for the day, all of which seemed important to follow through on. Hmmm I was interrupted even in the pondering or rest. I wonder if satan works so hard to destroy our rest if it has way more power than we give credit for. I will have to ponder that tomorrow.

1) (business meeting with God)

2) (blog)

3) (Act of Random Kindness)

4) (Clean something)

5) (Order something)

6) (Book)

7) (Family)

8) (Me)

9) (Ministry)

10) (rest)

Learning to rest... well maybe???

I think after more than a month it is time to change the theme of my blogs… but not really. Though I really do want my eyes opened to the opportunity responding in kindness, it happens not as I try but as I hone my ears to listen.

Today I don’t have the energy to do much of anything. I drug myself through getting all the dishes done. God I don’t have any motivation this morning what about that? (listening) The sense I have is that I am tired. (duh!) Hmmm, you know, I’m not sure I “get” that God calls us to rest sometimes. I’m thinking of that story about Elijah in Kings 19 where Elijah falls asleep under a bush and an angel wakes him up to eat and drink and then he lies down to rest again. I understand that God rested on the 7^th day but I am not sure I have room in my world for rest. I read a book once called “When I relax I feel guilty” hmmm.

So God, what does rest look like? (listening) I have a clear picture that computers do are not restful. Well, that makes sense. I don’t like being sucked into the computer craze but it is harder when I am tired. I don’t know how to explain but I am seeing a cycle. I’m tired so I “veg” which often includes checking out the news or whatever on the computer. Which makes me tired…. On and on it goes. I think it’s time for an internet fast. I don’t believe I am to quite blogging or writing in general. I am suppose to write but that only requires a short connection to the internet.

Even so God that doesn’t help me know what rest would look like for me right now. (listening) Hmmm, that feels like all I am to do right now, rest from the flurry of input which adds chaos to my brain. Ok. I’ll report tomorrow what kind of an effect that has on my energy level.

There are other things on my list from God today but they are mostly send off a bill, package up some boxes for shipment, things like that.

1) (business meeting with God)

2) (blog)

3) (Act of Random Kindness)

4) (Clean something)

5) (Order something)

6) (Book)

7) (Family)

8) (Me)

9) (Ministry)

10) (rest)