I just listened again to a lesson by Bob Hamp of Freedom Ministries. He talks about Matthew 6:33 where Jesus says "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you." The idea I got was, if I focus on the problem--even for the purpose of solving the problem my focus is on something other than Jesus. If I focus on Jesus, and take my cues from Him, my problem will resolve itself.
So let's take money as an example (since money is a problem for me). I hate money. In my life growing up it was used as a manipulative tool. Hmmm, is money always a manipulative tool? That's the deal. If I work to make money isn't it a manipulative tool? And if I am focused on what that work will make me, money wise, where is my focus? Why do we work? I do ministry for women who have been hurt. I certainly don't do that for the money. There is no money to be made working on the outside of the gate. But, it takes money to eat... doesn't it? Where do you draw the line? When is money the focus of what we do and when is it the consequence? (listening) (still listening)
It is now tax season. Every year I start out the year with great hopes that I will find new gifts of organization and keep everything together so tax season is a breeze. Every year I fail at it miserably and I spend many hours sorting papers. Each year I question why I am doing what I do in light of my chaos. But each year that paperwork comes together and I am ready to start again.There has to be something more. I feel like I am becoming cynical, a wake up call in my mind! I have to admit I like that Jesus paid the taxes with money covered in fish drool *smile*. Hmmm (listening again)
So what does it mean, "Seek first the kingdom"? Funny I keep listening but I am not hearing much. The only thing I hear is "listen" hmmm maybe that is the answer.