Do you look at a glass and see it half full or half empty? I am thinking more about ANTs that is automatic negative thoughts. I understand that they are toxic, meaning that they are self destructive when we have them. I understand that they can actually change the way your brain develops and build a pattern of … hmmm well bitter thinking but I am beginning to think that they are destructive to others as well. I am thinking of Hebrews 12:15b which says, “lest any root of bitterness springing up cause trouble, and by this many become defiled;” I have had that passage twisted in my life before and used as an attack on those whose prophetic gifting drives them to speak truth in opposition to violations. I think in reaction I haven’t really looked at this passage before. In the context of ANTs it is making sense to me.
So, do you look at a glass and see it half full or half empty? Do I look at the glass half full or half empty? Does that perception spread to others around me? Are ANTs like red ANTs… the kind that bite? Do they crawl out of our mouths and start stinging everyone around us?The thing about ANTs that makes me feel a little trapped is that they are automatic. How do you stop yourself from going there, from thinking negatively?
If you go back to the post-traumatic stress idea where incidents go round and round in your head. In my mind, is your brain trying to process the unprocessable. There is evil in this world and there is no way to make sense of it. God how do you stop negative things from rolling around in there? (listening) The sense I have is that it goes back to what you believe.
I recently was sitting in a hospital praying. Sometimes I don’t know how to pray. I don’t know the right things to ask. I don’t know all the parameters, I don’t know what I’m asking-- if that makes any sense.
This time all I could think to say was I knew that God is good and He has only the very best in mind, that He was there and that there was more to the situation than I could imagine. So I took to praising Him. It was a better way to spend the hours than worrying and fretting. However, ifI believed that God is unpredictable or vindictive, then what can I have but ANTs and those ANTs might change everything about my response in any given situation.
Going one step further, there was someone else in the room waiting with me. Fear is contagious. I’m sure that ANTs spread. They certainly spread from others to me. I wonder what I can do to prevent my own ANTs from biting others and keep other people’s ANTs from biting me.