I have been sitting here this morning trying to listen to God and trying to sort out my brain. It is full of conflicting emotions. I feel frozen, I have so many things I want to do with my life in the next few months but… I am finite and limited… and tired.
I suppose I believe there are two forces in our lives. I believe satan is working to stir evil desires within us, desires for things that our flesh craves as important but are really harmful. I’m still thinking about Psalms 37:4 (delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desire of your heart). God gives us the desires of our hearts. I don’t believe God means that to say He gives me the stuff I want. He gives me the want itself... Delight in the LORD and your desires change… they become holy. You don’t make your desires holy by trying but by delighting in the LORD. Holy desires are a gift from the LORD or maybe a law of physics. If you drop the butter, it will go splat on the floor. If you delight in the LORD… you will be filled with holy desire. What an awesome picture… see It’s not my effort that makes me holy in my thinking. Does it make sense then that the work of holiness is in being still? Psalms 46:10 says “Be still and know that I am God” How can we delight in Him if we do not know Him… and how can we know Him if we are never still? No wonder there is so much in the scripture about resting… Have I said that before?